This was not suppose to happen

well, im trying to write down smthg here . .
im confused . . there's lot of things that ive to think about . . family , friends , study n myself . . ok , lets talk bout 'mr perfect' n 'mr beast' . . .

ive a fren , mr beast . . . i noe , i never met anyone like him b4 in my life . . . i noe i can rely on him . .but there's smthng dat really bothers me in any way . . he loves me ? ? im not sure , but thats wat i feel . . . n he's kinda . . . giving me wat of hint bout his feeling towards me . . it makes me uncomfortable . . heyh wait , just wanna let u noe , 4 me he's so damn fucking sweet n gorgeous . . .

actually i love someone else . . mr perfect . . he's not d man of my dreams , but he's so different from everyone else ive been involved with . . i adore him . . i do called him 'mr perfect' , but he's not so perfect like wut u think . . nobody perfect . . i enjoy every moment and every second that i shared or spent wif him . . he's kinda romantic and gentleman . . (yeke . . aima ?)

ouh . . lets go back to 'mr beast' . . i like him but im not in love wif him . not today, at least . . he just was mr beast . .a fact of mylife . . someone that always be part of me . .

i never truly thought this would happen . . he might be loving me . . while i dont ??!! i cant expect everythng to be normal . . i cant start dating him . . going out , seeing how it goes . .there's no halfway measure . .couple or go on wif dis 'ackward' situation . .either way the frenship is over . .

they r totally different . . mr beast n me always laughing so hard until we were leaning over d table , clutching our stomach , n tears running down my face . . had mr perfect ever made me laugh like dat ?hey wait . .dont get me wrong .. 4 surely im happy wif both them . . its just bearing in my mind . .

heyh mr beast , if u read this . . i want u to noe dat im not comfortable witha all of this . .i miss our moment together(without this ackward things) . . FRIENDSHIP . . i like it . .dont mke it worse . . i like u , but i love him . . i didnt plan this ,mr beast . .its beyond me . . im sorry..


p/s; mr beast = i noe u noe wut i mean n try to understand it ok ?
mr perfect= hey . . just wanna give u smthng . .its a smile =) n ur eyes . . ohhhh. . still
melting my heart . .